Friday, February 24, 2012


I posted a while back about how we don't know how much time we have left on earth. That was reiterated in my mind recently, in a way more terrifying than I would have ever expected.

My mom picks me up from school every day. I couldn't ride the bus when I was injured, and we kind of just stayed in the habit after my foot was healed. At the end of last month we had a half day at school so I was going home around 11:20 instead of 5:00 (Musical Rehearsal). We were sitting at a light, and it turned green and my mom began to drive into the intersection. Everyone was stopped at the light going the other direction, except for one person. There was a blue sedan that didn't stop at the red light. They almost t-boned our car. My mom and I would have been seriously injured, if not dead.
Like I said, we don't know how much time we have left on earth. Only God does. Let's make a difference while we can.

On another subject- Ring Dance is next weekend! I'm not sure if I'm excited or not...which is kind of an odd feeling. I don't have a date, and at this point I don't have a group of friends to go with, especially since my best friend since second grade won't be there. Taylor, being the insanely talented gymnast that she is, will be in Florida at a gymnastics meet. Our ring dance is at the Officer's Club on a local military base, and I've heard that it's really going to be crowded. YAY! *not*

What I AM excited about, without a doubt, is the District Fine Arts Festival I'm going to in Maryland with my youth Group. Let's go WAG Church! Remember my "Last Lecture" speech/essay? I edited that (pretty severely, actually) and entered it into the First Person Essay section of the contest. I have a chance to spend a weekend with some of the coolest people in the area, watch them perform, and possibly even make an impact on someone's life through my writing. I'm SUPER excited.
If you guys want me to, I'll do a "Blogging DFAF" like the "A day in the life" posts on Sparknotes. I'll send it to Sparklife, and if it doesn't get published I'll post it here.
Actually, I'll do it whether you want me to or not. If you'd rather me do a vlog, then I can do that too.
Let me know in the poll or in the comments (Poll if I can remember how to set up one)
Later y'all.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Ring Dance

Even though I tried to remember the Lord as my "Valentine" today, the day was awful...
Freshmen girls carrying teddy bears the same height as them that their boyfriends gave them,
Girls with roses
People kissing
People happy
And then my "forever aloneness"
High school + Valentine's Day + Single Me = ARRRGGGHHHHH!!!!!!

Ring Dance is coming up...and if I'm going with a date or a guest I have to know by the 29th, since it's on a military base. I asked my best guy friend from school today, but he's going with someone else. Now I don't know who to ask or to go with...
I don't want to go alone. I did that for was awful. Probably partly because I was in a wheelchair...
But whatever.

So...anybody want to go to Ring Dance with me? If you can get here, that is... seeing as how most of my followers don't live anywhere near me.

*forever alone*

Tuesday, February 14, 2012


As I think about tomorrow being Valentine's Day, I'm realizing that I don't want to celebrate Single's Awareness day like I have the past few years - because I have an everlasting Valentine.

Not only does God love me, but he sent his Son to die for me. That's a humbling thought.

As it is, I'm rather nervous. Ring Dance is coming up for my school, and I really don't want to go alone. So I'm asking one of my guy friends to be my escort - and I'm nervous about asking him. That probably seems really silly, since I'm asking him to go as a friend, but I'm just weird like that. I wish I had some felix felicis...

Before I go...remember what love REALLY is, guys.

"Love is patient
love is kind
It does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud
It does not dishonor others
It is not self seeking
It is not easily angered
It keeps no record of wrongs
Love does not delight in evil
But rejoices with the truth
It always protects
Always trusts
Always hopes
Always perseveres.

Love never fails...
And now these three remain
Faith, hope, and love
But the greatest of these is love."

1 Corinthians 13:4-8a, 13

I love you all because of the way Christ loved me.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Short Fuse

I can't find peace
Where's the joy?
There's too much
Going on right now
Too much for me to handle.

I feel like giving up
I'm afraid I'm about to give in
Would anyone care
If I just gave up?
Anyone less than 100 miles away?

I'm struggling again
Worse than I have in ages
No reason.

Going on
Keeping going
Tiring out
Worse and worse
It's harder, and harder.

No time
For anything
Even God is pushed aside
Because of school
and Theatre.

is happening
I'm becoming a "sloggy log."
Just what I didn't want to happen.

What's happening
I'm scared
Too much is going on
Too much is changing

Help me, God.
Guide me.
I'm scared.
Save me.
Protect me.
Take care of me.